no hope. no love. no glory.

& sill a happy ending 

"Why should all life be work, when we all can borrow

Let's only think about today, and not worry about tomorrow"

quote from Zelda’s yearbook- May 1918

To Scott, From Zelda

Sweetheart,
     Please, please don’t be so depressed—We’ll be married soon, and then these lonesome nights will be over forever—and until we are, I am loving, loving every tiny minute of the day and night—
     Maybe you won’t understand this, but sometimes when I miss you most, it’s hardest to write—and you always know when I make myself—Just the ache of it all—and I can’t tell you.
     If we were together, you’d feel how strong it is—you’re so sweet when you’re melancholy. I love your sad tenderness—when I’ve hurt you—That’s one of the reasons I could never be sorry for our quarrels—and they bothered you so— Those dear, dear little fusses, when I always tried so hard to make you kiss and forget—
     Scott—there’s nothing in all the world I want but you—and your precious love—All the materials things are nothing.
     I’d just hate to live a sordid, colorless existence-because you’d soon love me less—and less—and I’d do anything—anything—to keep your heart for my own—I don’t want to live—I want to love first, and live incidentally…
     Don’t—don’t ever think of the things you can’t give me—You’ve trusted me with the dearest heart of all—and it’s so damn much more than anybody else in all the world has ever had—
     How can you think deliberately of life without me—If you should die—O Darling—darling Scott—It’d be like going blind…I’d have no purpose in life—just a pretty—decoration.
     Don’t you think I was made for you? I feel like you had me ordered—and I was delivered to you—to be worn—I want you to wear me, like a watch—charm or a button hole bouquet—to the world.
     And then, when we’re alone, I want to help—to know that you can’t do anything without me…
     All my heart—
     I love you

Sick Life

Sorry! I've been out for a long time here but I have good reasons.
I'm sick again. I have like 3 Viruses in my blood & the Anemia is still there.
I feel most of the time really tired. Tired and hungry! I see food and I want to eat & eat & eat ( maybe because my organism need energy to fight against all the bacterias I have)
Now I'm taking antibiotics that makes me feel really dizzy.
As soon as I feel better I will write some stuff.
It seems like I'm going to make a little trip but I'm still not sure.
More of that later.
Bye bye sweethearts! I hope to see you soon.

xx
C.