Day 6 : About Life

Being depressed without knowing is dangerous.

2 years ago,I remember I crashed my car 2 times in one month. My dad was crazy.The first time I crashed I remember that my first thought was : "I hope the car is okay"
The second time : "oh god...this time is gonna be expensive" Even though I hit my head with the glass and my neck was hurting like hell..to be honest I couldn't care less about me.

When I recovered I felt more alive (annoyingly alive) funny how we feel like that after something literally hits you. At school I didn't do my homework. At house...I don't even remember what I used to do. Just staying in bed all day sleeping was okay for me. & when my friends called me to invite me to go out I always had an excuse to decline the invitation "oh i'm sorry I have work to do"

I stopped using makeup...I wore just oversized pijamas & most of the money I got I used to spend it on food. I looked around just with envy. "ugh! everyone is happy nowdays"

My mom always asked me why I always was so serious...I just looked at her with a frown. I wasn't being serious I was just...dull.

So at christmas while everyone was happy and hugging each other, the only thing that was in my head was the idea of start over: "new year is coming...maybe everything is gonna change"

With new year came a thing called hope.

I never thought about killing myself.I was just not living nor surviving. Suriving mens that even if the world is against you,you want to keep on going; but me...I was just breathing.

Weeping all night hoping the tears would wash away my worries a new year began.

& now I'm okay.
The urge of do new stuff, create projects & make plans was overwhelming.
Still is.
Is never to late to cheer up.

Day 3: Flapper

Flapper where woman who fight to get the right to vote
so what did I did?
I went out I did vote.

the problem is: a lot of women now have air inside their heads
But I still have hope.

Escapism- Writting

 Today I'm going to show you something really embarrassing. It is a notebook from 2006. In this notebook I was writing a (I don't know how to call it) story.

About Life & other Tragedies- Don't look back

I always carry my journal everywhere. One time my friend took it & a pic of me fell to the floor. The pic was missing the other half.In that half used to be one person who made of my life a living hell.But that's not the point.

About Life & Other Tragedies- Mind on Mars

Today I have a funny story.

I don't know if you heard about 30 seconds to mars (of course you do,why am i being silly?)

So now i want to share something with all of the people who likes this band, especially with the ones who love Jared Leto.

I went to the Taste of Chaos on 2007 (it was the last show of Matt and then he left the band) It was in El Paso TX.