Day 6 : About Life

Being depressed without knowing is dangerous.

2 years ago,I remember I crashed my car 2 times in one month. My dad was crazy.The first time I crashed I remember that my first thought was : "I hope the car is okay"
The second time : "oh god...this time is gonna be expensive" Even though I hit my head with the glass and my neck was hurting like hell..to be honest I couldn't care less about me.

When I recovered I felt more alive (annoyingly alive) funny how we feel like that after something literally hits you. At school I didn't do my homework. At house...I don't even remember what I used to do. Just staying in bed all day sleeping was okay for me. & when my friends called me to invite me to go out I always had an excuse to decline the invitation "oh i'm sorry I have work to do"

I stopped using makeup...I wore just oversized pijamas & most of the money I got I used to spend it on food. I looked around just with envy. "ugh! everyone is happy nowdays"

My mom always asked me why I always was so serious...I just looked at her with a frown. I wasn't being serious I was just...dull.

So at christmas while everyone was happy and hugging each other, the only thing that was in my head was the idea of start over: "new year is coming...maybe everything is gonna change"

With new year came a thing called hope.

I never thought about killing myself.I was just not living nor surviving. Suriving mens that even if the world is against you,you want to keep on going; but me...I was just breathing.

Weeping all night hoping the tears would wash away my worries a new year began.

& now I'm okay.
The urge of do new stuff, create projects & make plans was overwhelming.
Still is.
Is never to late to cheer up.

Day 4: 'Yes' is the answer

'Yes' is always the answer was one of the main points of this Zelda's summer
So my dad told me: 'I need to do some errands, do you want to join me?'

Day 3: Flapper

Flapper where woman who fight to get the right to vote
so what did I did?
I went out I did vote.

the problem is: a lot of women now have air inside their heads
But I still have hope.

About Life & other Tragedies- Plans

Long time ago I made some plans. 2012 was not the deadline.I just made plans according to other stuff. Like: "when i finish school I'm gonna do this & that"

Well this & that are not gonna be possible (cheers for that!)

Highlights- The Lost Art of Letters.

Post Office.P.O. box.Postcards.Stamps. You must think by now: "do we still have these in my town?"

Escapism- Thank you for shopping with us!

I must confess...I have weird mania (obsession? disorder? god knows what the hell it is) of keeping every single ticket & receipt I get.